Never forsaken

Monday's challenge was to write a psalm; I relished this one because I love writing, especially when it serves a greater purpose than just entertainment.  Writing psalms is, for me, another way of expressing my love and gratitude, or whatever other emotions I'm feeling, to my Lord Jesus.  I wrote the following late that night, after a long day babysitting and dealing with life in general.

Oh, my God, how marvelous You are!
I cannot even fathom how deep Your love for us is.
I want to always be in Your presence; please, never leave me;
Keep Your promise, "I will never leave, nor forsake you."
Be the light that guides me through life,
Let me navigate the darkness in confidence.
I look to my left and my right --
There are so many people who do not know you.
The world is plagued by darkness
But You have made a way, Lord,
So that the world may come to know You.
You, who knows every detail,
Who knows every one of the people in this world,
You look down from heaven and see us --
You know our hearts.
You see those who have not put their trust in You.
Change their hearts, oh Lord,
Make a way, show them Your love.
They long to know You, God;
Do not be far away from them.
How wonderful it is that I know
You will never leave those who know You.
May we know You, my Lord
And know Your magnificence in full.

The nice (yet scary) thing for me is that I don't have to filter my thoughts when I write psalms; I don't have to worry about what words come out.  I have written multiple psalms over the last 6 months, and after writing the other night's psalm I decided to look over some of the older ones.  I wanted to see what they were like, to see if I had been writing in a certain style or not.  What I found while reading through them was not what I expected, but it was even better.  The words and phrases I used were similar, true, but what's behind them expresses something deeper.  I wrote things like...

"Forgive me, Lord, according to Your promise,
Do not let me go and do not forsake me."

And...

"The Lord promises to be faithful;
He will never forsake me."



Each psalm I've written has been created at different times in my walk with God.  Subconsciously, I've been coming back to the same verse and the same phrase to give me comfort, to reassure me when I am dismayed, and to praise God when He keeps His promise.  I kept asking myself, Why?  Why do I go back to this, what's so important about these words?  I know that He will not forsake me-- He has said so multiple times in His Word.  And He proves it to me daily.  Yet, these words still speak to me in a powerful way.
Perhaps, it could be because I am a natural worrier.  More than that, I almost always find myself to be anxious and/or fearful of something.  What grade will I get in this class, what if someone in my family or one of my friends passes away before I can tell them how much I love them, what do I do if I can't find a job...every possible bad thing that can happen in life has run through my mind at least a dozen times.  I'm always checking over my shoulder to see if some wave is about to crash over me and drown me. 
These words, the words I keep coming back to and that constantly repeat over and over in my mind, are from Deuteronomy 31:6-8.  Although I've read these words before, God lovingly keeps telling me, "I'm not going anywhere.  I'm always there for you; I've already promised that to you.  But because I know you worry, and because I know you'll need to be reminded sometimes, I'll keep telling you.  I will never forsake you."

~Laurel